This year I got my crush on a boy, I’m a college freshman btw.
Basically, this entire year the two of us were too nervous to talk to each other but were constantly exchanging glances, unsure if one liked the other.
Finally, an incident came around where it was pretty obvious the boy gave me the okay to talk to him after lecture.
I wanted to, and even waited as he finished talking to his friends.
But then I got a message from my mom, that said my sister had gotten into a car accident and she wanted me to meet her immediately.
Knowing I didn’t really have a choice, I got up and walked out of the classroom. But I had to use the bathroom first, which is a little in the opposite direction of the student union (where my mom wanted me to meet her).
As I was exiting, I saw the boy, and because I was already late, I walked right past him.
My sister later died that weekend.
I tried talking to the boy on Monday but he was by then extremely frustrated with me. So much so that he completely refuses to listen to me.
He got the idea that I’d been playing him the entire year.
(at the beginning of the semester I mistook him for a friend of mine, and that’s how he noticed me; I also tend to wear a lot of pretty clothes, not necessarily for him, but coincidentally when I am around him; I also tended to stare at him a lot yet never talked to him).
My question is this: should I tell the boy about my sister’s accident? I’ve got the idea of writing a not but haven’t written it yet.
Should I tell him? I don’t want him to be with me only out of guilt. If I should, how should I word everything in the note?
I’ve never felt this way about a boy before I would hate for him to be with me out of guilt.
No I really don’t know what’s the right thing to do.