Student Exchange Programs

My husband has hurt me allot from neglecting me and taking me for granted……I became bitter and resentful I am living in the past he has hurt me so much from going to the bars all the time and not bringing me once…to flirting with girls…and yes he never slept out and I never actually caught him cheating….our relationship had allot of fighting..i couldn’t summit to him because he didn’t respect me….he told everybody im crazy at work…anyways after 3 a years of marriage we broke up for 2 month because I was having a nerves break down..i used to nag and re-live all the hurt in 3 years..and the fact that he was putting other people first.I live in a state where i dont have friends or family…so he is more outgoing then me and i felt like he had friends and didnt care that i needed to feel important…when i finally left…i never thought he would cry like a baby..I stood strong and he was in a dating site 10 days after we where done..met a gir,told everybody i was a crazy jelous bitch,and he is so much happier….went out partying ect…then slowly we stared talking again and some how he said that he didnt sleep with girls when we where separated that the girl was just a friend that help him cope and also that he is sorry and he wants us to go to church build are family strong…and he will never put anybody first then me…but i regret going back with him,he doesnt deserve me and its sad that it took that for him to realize that.
I was been insecure and jealous that he would find somebody and because i saw ill this girls that where soppose to be our friends trying to hit on him and liking all his Facebook status…then when we got back together even men got jealous because people cant stand a family and a men that is willing to treat me right.
But i cant let go of the past …im 25 and he doesnt have a time machine to recover does horrible 3 years…i was also illegal for 2 years because i got knock up when i was an exchange student so he married me and he told me that he was going to make me happy then physical abuse and controlling
This men has been very jelous and ive never cheated on him not even when we where separated…my self esteem is really low and he says we cant separated because we have a daughter together and we made vowels or he blades me telling me that im crazy and that im fuck**ing someone at work…he told me if i summit to him are marriage will work…he promise that he wont him me break my stuff or talk to girls behind my back…but i gotta stop acussing him and talking about the past.